The Beginning

Ok so today I am going all out of my comfort zone and telling about where I have been the last few months. Ok so this nightmare started last December six day before Christmas. I wanted to lose some more weight after losing about 12 kilos. I still wasn’t happy with myself. So we went to the doctor and asked for some advice. I had no idea that that day would change my life for a very long time. I got up early to go to the hospital to see my doctor. He did some tests and after a long conversation with lots of questions I ended up staying there for four weeks. Yes, that meant Christmas day too. I don’t remember it word for word what he said exactly but it went something like this…Alice you are very sick your heart is beating less than half the amount of beats that it should be and there are a lot of other things wrong as well. You have a disease called Anorexia. One day I would like you to be able to leave this hospital but for today and a few more you will be staying here… My heart really did stop at that moment. I didn’t know what to do I was full of so many emotions mostly disbelief. I felt so disappointed. I had worked so hard to lose weight and all I had been doing was ruining my body. So this is where the road began I’m still walking slowly and sometimes I go backwards but that’s ok I will get better one day. It’s a battle but I will win.

Ali-rose